Second...Chances

I'm struggling to get back into blogging these past months. Now, I'm having a full energy for new beginnings in my life. I was reminded just how important second chances are. So can I just try this again? For those of you who need a second chance, or maybe you need to be the one who should give it, now is the time. I'm hoping it can lead to a more beautiful thing than I'm only imagining.

I'm A ... Guitar

Music was basically my first love.

I started singing when I was 5, but I don't have basic lessons. It's just purely self-educate. That is why I think I'm terrible at it. hahaha! As for the guitar, I started strumming chords when I was 16, and I'm pretty good at it. I'm also into flute, but I don't play it anymore. See, I love pushing buttons years and years ago. So, I'd love to learn bashing out piano keys in the future...

Someone's Watching Over Me

So I won't give up, no I wont' break down,
Sooner than it seems life turns around,
And I will be strong, even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me.

Artist: Hilary Duff

I only recently discovered this song. I must say it touched me deeply right now since I lost someone I love just the other day. It's what he would have said to me...in a way.

Dear Zhy,

Why did you leave me? I thought I was going to carry on if ever you're gone, now I know I can't live without you. I was just asking for some time to see you, but why didn't you wait for me? I don't know what to do. I don't know what to feel. But this is reality and it's slapping me right now, that I can't be in denial any more, that you were really gone.

It's my entire fault, on what have I done to us, and I'm going to carry this burden for the rest of my life. I don't really know what's the real meaning of the words "turn back time", until now. But if I can, I will not, even though there is a part of me that wants to hold on to you forever. I know you're happy from where you are right now, and I don't want you to suffer from pain any more. I understand that we will never see each other again. But, you are not gone forever, no matter what happens and what comes into my life. You are standing with God, guiding me everyday towards the future that I cannot predict.

This is not a goodbye. This is a thank you. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. Thank you for showing me how to be brave and holding on for life, for our loved ones. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time to eventually let go, not for someone else but for ourselves.

Right now, I don't think I'm ready but you leave me with no choice. Because of you, I am hopeful that there will come a day when my sadness is replaced by something beautiful. Because of you, I have the strength to go on.

I love you. For the rest of my life.

-j-

My Brother is 12

Surely a star danced in heaven on the day you were born.

Wishing you a very happy birthday...and many more!




Love you, brother!

My Mind Was Lost

Here I am, back writing again this time just to tell that I have not forgotten all of you. There had been lots of stuff going on with my work so I just make sure that I take a chainsaw to my schedule to carve out some time for writing...but, I don't know what to say, actually :D

Honestly, I'm getting a lot of stress these past months..probably for the reason that I almost have had 3 1/2 months to go now to finish all my accounting report and then I'm off to find a new job. Yeah, I've been thinking that a lot lately so please forgive me. I know I shouldn't have done that, and now I feel this way.

And normally when it's like that, I don't write because my thoughts were so inconsistent, I used to rambled on. My brain wasn't functioning well. I thought I was completely out-of-me, that's why I said my mind was lost (if you can relate to that :D).

I really don't know how to get back on track but hey I'm still writing to vent a bit. To those who'll get a chance to read this post, I'm so sorry from the bottom of my heart. I don't have any interesting thoughts to share this time and I don't think this will going to be a very deep conversation.

But regardless, this have been my favorite question up to date-'Are you doing anything?'. Definitely yes...I promise you all, I don't sit around on my chair all day doing nothing. I'm telling you all, I don't even have a single choice - it's a given task. So, I will do my part(job) and will energetically and enthusiastically continue to do so. I'm working below my radar and throwing myself wholeheartedly finishing them all.

What do you think? I'm right, I don't have any interesting update to say this time. Ooh! I hate this part when I can't extract my thoughts no matter what I do. The squeezing thing isn't just right. I wish I could divulge the things that are blocking the flow of my what-so-called 'MIND'...but I'm telling you all, this is also complicated and confusing to me...someone who's in the middle of the whole thing.

I just hope this will be worth it in due time..and I hope I'm not too boring because I would definitely hate that, h-a-h kidding! But I'm pretty sure that I'm going to absorb a whole lot more in months that are yet coming. Yes, I'm 21 but I feel like my life is just beginning.

I hope to write some more during the next days :D

Sorry, if it was a little confusing. I know. I often tend to ramble on with my mind haha! I <3>

Where My Life Is At

Hi! My name is JoJo. I am the girl whose passions are the soul expressions of 'music and writing.' I have grown up doing what I loved without even knowing what I'm doing, actually. But of course, probably those were my innocent times...back before I'd ever known I'd become an accountant and obsessed with numbers and analyzing problems and sort of "abnormal" stuffs like that. Haha! No, it's just weird for me to think such things exists for us.

Too deep...

You see even though I chose a different path, and no matter what I continue to pursue in the end, 'music and writing' will always stake a claim at my root. For the most part, it never went away because it was there. It shares such a big portion of my life. Without it, probably I would've died a long time ago.

But regardless...

This is the moment were it kinda came to me. I honestly didn't consider this at first...but I will never take anything for granted again. I will properly appreciate and understand everything that was ever given to me. Everything can be taken away if I make one wrong move...that's the reality that everyone should accept.

Now is the time...

I will open up my heart to 'music and writing' again.